| lj to myspace |
[Jan. 16th, 2005|06:02 pm] |
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i would just like to say i am leaving LiveJournal. MySpace is ALOT cooler... oh well. Cheerio everyone! |
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[Jan. 13th, 2005|04:53 pm] |
| [ | How I feel today |
| |  sore | ] |
| [ | Music |
| | lets go Trick Daddy | ] |
I got my teeth fixed from my golfball incident. they looked so gross, like monsters teeth, honestly. Thank goodness for dentists! I watched Elf once again, and started laughing and choked on this nasty stuff that was on my teeth, definately disgusting.
So yeah, guy situation, confusing. I guess i just don't know what i want at the moment. And what i might want, isn't how he feels. Love sucks huh?
my mouth tastes like blood. :[ |
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| wahh :] |
[Jan. 9th, 2005|11:36 am] |
^ haha thats nice now isnt it?
*friday* Natalie Ashley Monique London and I went to the movies and saw white noise. That movie creeped me out so much, I'm still not sure why it really did. Jose and some other guys went too. After the movies I went to London's.
*saturday* Natalie Hill Marin Nicole London and I went to Kyle's house. Met a few cute guys,( cough cough Lee) haha. Then there was this girl who I didnt know so i yelled "Who are you?" and she freaked out on me. Aw man it was great. Then we just ended up playing poker and i won! woot. Afterwards Natalie London and I spent the night at Hill's.
*sunday* Went to krispy kreme! i love those donuts, especially the chocalate ones. I can only have one though, or else i feel sick. Then we decided to play card games. Good times.
So pretty much this weekend was spent with all the gals. <3 Gotta love em!
this weekend... party at kyles. woot :0) Hopefully.... |
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| FriDaY ! |
[Jan. 7th, 2005|02:10 pm] |
| [ | How I feel today |
| |  giggly | ] |
| [ | Music |
| | accidently in love- counting crows | ] |
hah school has been good fun. The Library definately makes my day, especially getting kicked out, for various reasons. I also got in trouble on the bus today with Andy and Stephanie.
tonight i'm pretty sure im going to the sets with london to see jesse keiv gunnar brad jordy garrett miguel and all those awesome bands. :]
... and if that plan fails i'm seeing white noise! i hope i see that cuz i havent seen a good scary movie in a while, saw sucks ass.
Hope you all have a good weekend...
*kt* |
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[Jan. 5th, 2005|05:02 pm] |
| [ | How I feel today |
| |  energetic | ] |
| [ | Music |
| | roll to me- del amitri | ] |
I am in love with this song I am listening to. You should download it. Yes that's right YOU!
Schools been going... hoping to get better grades than last semester.. hah. Tornado warning was pretty freaky huh! how random was that? I'm getting sick of it raining and being so cold, but hey at least its warmer than scotland.
well i'm out to download more songs from kazaa! |
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| 2005! |
[Jan. 1st, 2005|01:17 pm] |
Last night i went to Moniques and hung out with Hill, Ash and all the rest of the girls and guys. After everyone left, Mo Hill Ash and I played Jumanji. haha. I spent the night there then this morning i came home around 11:30 or so.
It's hard to believe that in only 2 years we graduate.... I still don't really know what i want to be when i'm older. I'm thinking of going to ASU or maybe UOA. Hmm.
I called my Grandpa to wish him a happy new year. It's hard to think he's all alone. When i'm older i hope i go first, i don't think i would be able to live alone. :[
School starts in 2 days, it feels like i just got on break considering i have been gone the whole time. Oh dear. I hope 2005 is alot better than 2004. Hopefully there won't be as many deaths as there was this year in my family. |
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| boreddddddd |
[Dec. 30th, 2004|09:50 am] |
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i am in london right now. yes thats right london england. we still have to wait another 3 hours or so for our plane to get in. ahhhhh 9 hours and 45 minutes of sitting on a plane! i get home tonight around 5 or so. ha... and i realized i dont want to come home at all. theres no one i really want to see besides kimmie and my animals. pretty lame huh, but hey, i realized some people i thought were really important to me just arent. and they just arent as good of friends as i thought. but hey oh well. |
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| scotland |
[Dec. 23rd, 2004|01:07 pm] |
i went to my grandma's funeral yesterday. i was a mess. i couldnt hold myself together. we rode in a black limo behind my grandma and the car she was carried in. it was a really nice service though.
today amy and i are going to go to Lee's house. It will be good to see the Nortons. They always make me laugh, and thats what i really need right now.
So right now i am sitting in the library, burning since their heaters are on full blast! everywhere i go each shop has their heaters full on, since it's cold outside. They say there may be snow for christmas, that will be nice. A white christmas. :0)
So i definately dont have any plans for new years eve yet so if anyone wants to hang out the last 3 days of vacation feel free to call me. I get home on the 30th of December. |
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| today |
[Dec. 21st, 2004|02:54 pm] |
I'm in Scotland now. I am absolutely freezing! If it wasnt for alex's sweater and my big poofy red jacket i would be frozen in the walkway right now.It gets dark here around 3 or 4 in the afternoon. I love my grandpa's house. It's right on the harbor and throughout the day you can watch the tide come in and out. This morning i slipped on the icy path, it was pretty funny. I love scotland though. I also realized how much I dont want to come home besides seeing Kimmie and a few friends at school.
I went to see my grandma today. That was extremely hard... i've never felt someone so cold, and stiff before. She was wearing a cream silk dress and is going to be cremated tomorrow. In her coffin, she has pictures of all of us. Her face didnt really look like herself, maybe it was her skin color. I cannot get her face out of my head. But it was peaceful, and i'm glad i did it.
I'm nervous about tomorrow. I dont think i will be able to hold myself together that well. I still need to go down the high street ( kinda like a huge shopping area) with Amy and buy some dark glasses.
Right now i am in the kirkaldy library, where my grandma used to go when she was really young to get books. She was so wise, and enjoyed books. Ha.. here i am talking about her again. My grandpa was telling me a story of when they were both 16, and my grandma had spent the night but they had to have seperate rooms. i hope he will be alright, its just killing me seeing how alone he is. he told me he's lost his best friend.
Oh how i miss kimmie right now. Kimmie... i dont know what you want but i will get you something after the funeral i really dont have anything else on my mind but that so dont worry i will get you something nice!
I also went to see my grandparents old house, where Amy and I stayed last time we were in scotland together. that was about 2 or 3 years ago. Wow, my grandma didnt even get to see me without my braces.
I only have 17 minutes left on this computer and i'm going to go and see if scotland gets aim! ... access denied damn.
heres something quite interesting...
as i was walking out from just seeing my grandma, i looked over to this far away castle, and asked my grandpa "isnt that where we used to go and see the seals with grandma last time we came?" and he said Yes. Then about 2 minutes later my mom said "katy come here" so i went over to her and she said "look" I looked back to where the castle was and there were two rays of light coming out of the sky. Now i dont know if i believe in a heaven or god or what not, but i believe it was a sign. And i know shes alright. |
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| worst year of my life |
[Dec. 17th, 2004|11:41 pm] |
I wonder if there is a god. And why he has made my family hurt so much these past few months. I know everyone dies, we all do, but there always seems a pattern in my family. Not only have i lost my dog, but ive lost my gran, along with my great uncle. and now my grandpa and my great aunt are left all alone. they have lost the loves of their lives, and are left without them for the remaining of their lives. i cannot stand to think of my grandpa living alone. i love him so much and its killing me knowing what he is going through. it's just killing me.
my grandma was without a doubt the most loving and the most hilarious person you would ever meet. everyone who met her always had something funny to say about her, and how much they enjoyed talking and being with her. i'm going to miss the long conversations we shared, yet i will always remember her. i believe that she is still with me. and whenever i need her all i have to do is talk to her. today i was sitting out back with Alfie, and the chair which she used to sit in when she was over began to rock. maybe it was just the wind, but i believe she was with me. and she always will be. i just wish she had more time to live. but then i am being selfish.
school has been extremely hard. Good thing its done for a few weeks. i've been fighting so hard not to break down. i need to stay strong for my family. i will have time to cry when i need it, but for now i need to be here for my mom and my sister especially.
However Kimmie has always been there for me, ever since the age of 4, we've hit it off. it's really great to have someone to talk with about life, and what i believe in. she's always been there to listen to what i have to say and to cry with me. she's the only person who knows how i am feeling, and who can help me through this. shes my best friend, and i dont know what i would do without her. i get jealous of her because of how religious she is, and i feel bad about feeling this way. i just wish i could be more like her. she's my idol.
:: hope you all have a great christmas vacation, and a happy new year. |
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[Dec. 15th, 2004|04:03 pm] |
My grandma died this morning. It's hard to say that, and to really realize that she is gone. My younger brother Mikey believes in god and a heaven and is comforted knowing she is okay. I dont know what i believe. I don't believe in a god, i am considering reincarnation. If there were a god, why would he want us to hurt? So he can teach us that everything happens for a reason? Does he take those we love because we are not grateful for them? I am extremely angry and upset and all i can do is ask why. And that one question cannot be answered, so i am left hanging not knowing what to believe, say, or think.
Death does not hurt the one who is dying, death hurts those who loved the one who died. My grandpa is left all alone. i cant stand the thought of him being alone.
I am going to scotland this saturday until the 30th of december to be with my family.
Merry Christmas...
and i hope next year wont be as depressing as this... :[
i feel so freaking stupid for whining and complaining over shit that doesnt matter. I've lost my grandma, and i could of talked with her more often rather than being too busy. I didn't get to say goodbye... death angers me. Mainly because i'm lost and confused. |
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| the weekend |
[Dec. 12th, 2004|04:16 pm] |
i kinda wish i had a guy to go to dances with. blah. oh well. this weekend i babysat the 3 most adorable kids. the 3 year old named Nickolas fell asleep on me and it made me realize how badly i want kids when i'm older. the other two fell asleep around 8... how great is that ?
i went to charolette russe and bought a ton of cute clothes and accessories over the weekend. :0) Shopping relaxes me and has become a fun hobby of mine. When i have the money that is... haha.
i am currently at harley's house, this kid i'm babysitting. he's in 2nd grade and is not even half as well behaved as the other kids i babysat last night. gahh. i better get paid for this....
finals this week... i'm screwed. actually not really i just freak myself out and shake like no other. good luck everyone ! |
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[Dec. 9th, 2004|06:03 pm] |
today i left spanish to go to the dentist. i got my teeth bleached there. aw man it took an hour and i just sat there with my mouth open. Now my teeth are incredibly sensitive. it feels like i have a cavity on the edge of each tooth. Owwie. I missed a ton of final review too.. gahhh. i hate finals week. But i love the feeling when its ALL OVER ! (until spring)
blah blah blah quiero un muchacho! |
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[Dec. 8th, 2004|03:07 pm] |
don't you just love those days when all you do is laugh at things.
a.k.a the picture of me on the toilet in the bathroom taken by london?
hahahahaha thats a classic |
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| Hmmm |
[Dec. 6th, 2004|07:17 pm] |
the conflict of my life at the moment:
*i hate my spanish class
*i am freaking myself out for finals
*i met this really nice guy but i dont know how he feels
*i am stressed to the MAX for studying !
.. gahhh don't you love this time of year !
( i really do minus the school part ) |
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[Dec. 4th, 2004|12:42 pm] |
| [ | How I feel today |
| |  calm | ] |
| [ | Music |
| | the killers- mr brightside | ] |
So yesterday was a half day London came home to meet Alfie ! hehe then we went to Fiesta Mall with Derrick and Sabastian. Thennn London and I went to the movies where i saw Cody. I havent seen him in a while it was good to see him :0) Then after the movies I went back to Londons and spent the night.
Today my mom went down to Petco and signed Alfie's adoption papers. That means he's here to stay ! hehe. Aw i am in love with this dog. He's just so adorable if anyone would like to see him feel free to drop by!
I've got to finish cleaning so i can hopefully get enough money to buy christmas presents for the family. Well i'm off !
i think... i might be liking someone. :0) Hopefully that is. |
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| eeee ! |
[Dec. 2nd, 2004|04:04 pm] |
| [ | How I feel today |
| |  envious | ] |
| [ | Music |
| | romeo and juliet- dire straits | ] |
December is here! That means time for the tree to get up. Aw i just love everything about the holidays. Especially this year because of our new puppy Alfie who in fact we are keeping.
i'm feeling rather lonely. i dont want just a boyfriend, i want someone i can really talk with and not be afraid to be myself around. thats what id like for christmas. hehe
which brings me to say i am beyond sick of seeing couples make out in the hallways. it pisses me off and makes me lonelyier. (katys new word)
i also feel like i dont have that person to talk with anymore. maybe its just a phase... i dont know though i feel like he kinda stole her from me and it makes me sad. :[
p.s. these crest white stripes premium are hurting my oh so sensitive teeth which got hit by that damn golfball ! |
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[Nov. 29th, 2004|03:29 pm] |
| [ | How I feel today |
| | grateful | ] |
| [ | Music |
| | the killers- mr brightside | ] |
We got ourselves a new dog yesterday from the humane society at Petco.
His name is Alfie, he is a black lab mixed with some other dog. His coat has a brownish tint and he's just so adorable.
<3 |
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[Nov. 27th, 2004|12:10 pm] |
Highland lost to Hamiltion. :[
but hey, at least we had a 9 in a row winning streak huh ! |
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| today |
[Nov. 26th, 2004|09:45 am] |
| [ | How I feel today |
| | cold | ] |
| [ | Music |
| | the strokes- reptilia | ] |
Yesterday was fun. Bridget Jone's is hilarious. Kimmie and I watched the Grinch. Woot.
Today is officially the biggest shopping day of the year. And i really want to go, but i'll probably go on sunday.
Go Highland ! ... although i have a feeling that Hamilton might, they just might win this time. |
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